Took a good long look in the mirror today. getting grayer. still can't decide if I want to shave my head again. but, most fat guys with goatees look alike. I kinda liked it though. made me look mean and intimidating.
I have actually had some one ask me for an autograph. they thought I was Bart from Mercy Me. that was cool...for a while. we went to a college deal and they led worship. every one looked at me weird all week.
I have spent a lot of time trying to be someone that others would have me be. a kinder gentler more compassionate person. I try at these things, and sometimes, as the Spirit moves, it happens. but most of the time, I am just me. loud, boistrus, funny and honestly blunt. it rubs some folks the wrong way. and sometimes i am sorry for that. other times, I am not.
I am of the mind that churches ought to be what they are created to be. some folks do not like that. I think we baby christian teens. some folks don't like that. I think we ought to be held accountable if we gossip...in front of the same audience we flapped our gums to. some folks dont think that. after all, what we really need is a community of believers who are not accountable or responsible for their actions.
people seldom act themselves in all situations. we get uptite around some folks, freak out in certain situations, kiss major booty in various situations, mean in others.
our kids know us in one way. their friends know us in another.
being comfortable in my skin is where I am. big, a bit too heavy, mouthy and passionate. but I dig it that I am who I am. If I could be I would not desire to be anyone else. Would not trade my life for another, would not change anything.
Pain often causes us to be different. heart pain can do that. lonliness can do that. unrealized expectations and hurt feelings.
as a minister at a couple of large churches, I realized most people would only allow me to deal with the facade they brought with them to church. not many folks let you see them for who they really are. sometimes it was pride, other times it was shame. either was sad.
in a world that pulls us to wear this, live here, drive that, eat here, smell like this, act this way...it is ever so important that we as believers know and understand who we are.
"I have been crucified in Christ. Yet, it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. The life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in Him who loved me and gave Himself for me." Paul
So, I actually look like Jesus. bet you were'nt expecting that huh?
There is enough pain to have to be someone we are not. there is enough pride outside the church for us to be caught up in it. there is enough status every where we look for us to be worried about our standing in the country club.
People are hungry, lonly, hurting and in need of hope.
if we cannot give them that which we have...Jesus...then we more than all are to be pitied among men.
Someone falls to pieces Sleepin all aloneSomeone kills the pain
Spinning in the silenceTo finally drift away
Someone gets excitedIn a chapel yardCatches a bouquet
Another lays a dozenWhite roses on a grave
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
Someone finds salvation in everyone
And another only fame
Someone tries to hide themselfDown inside their selfish brain
Someone swears his true loveUntill the end of time
Another runs awaySeparate or united?
Healthy or insane?
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
You can be fading upAnd pulled apart
Or been in loveEvery single memory of
Could have been faces of love
Dont lose any asleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win love
But to be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
Audioslave
What do you see when you look in the mirror?
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