my moment of zen

i will write about the trip later, but for now there are some things i need to unload.

i have been unpacking boxes for 3 days now. funny, we have moved into a small apt, have no furniture (delivered next week), no bed (a blow up mattress). we have a desk, a desk chair and a foot stool. i have no where to put this stuff, yet i unpack.

i open a box of student ministry stuff. pics and albums of ALL 3 churches were there. i went through them all. smiled a lot.

when it was over, i became extremely sad. teary eyed i sat there and said out loud, "i can;t believe i am done with student ministry."

it was time to go. this new direction is where i want to be, and where God wants me to be. but the finality of NOT speaking to students each week, impacting their lives with the truth of scripture, seeing their eyes light up as they encounters God in the text...those days are over.

it was difficult to get past that. still not sure if i am.

there are 2 things pressing into my heart...

getting primal faith up and running by the end of june

starting a book that has been rattling around my heart for many years.

so...i will unpack the trip little by little. but thanks for sharing my moment of zen.